Hmm…

Maybe if I actually did my reading for classes, I’d be a more interesting person.

 

Oh well. Guess I’ll just cram for exam tomorrow. /cleaned-all-day-and-yet-too-lazy-to-study

Spring Overhaul has begun

So the recent beautifuuul weather has given me a lot of energy. I’ve begun an overhaul of my life, at least I hope it’ll continue as such.

Though I’ve been very girly and all into make up and clothes lately, promise more video game stuff with be up at some point!

At the moment I’m very much concentrating on myself though. I spend so much time on League of Legends or doing absolutely nothing. Unfortunately this gets me thinking too much, or League just puts me in an incredibly bad mood if my group is doing awful. (Which is silly to get mad at a game, but you’d get it if you played!)

Anyway, I sort of lost my train of thought, I wasn’t going to say much though. I definitely think some point I’ll begin allocating a specific time to blogging to continue practising my writing, but at the moment I’m just getting out of the house and away from the computer.

Thanks to everyone who’s recently started following! I’ll try to stick around and be interesting, I promise!

Ima out!

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As I say this, I’m off to play LoL, ahahahahaaa! Hey I’ve been out all day and have work in the morning ;p

 

Clinique Even Better Foundation Impressions

Heey there!

So I mentioned in a previous post that I bought some new makeup products to tryout. One of those being Clinique’s Even Better foundation. I had seen advertisements that said it was supposed to improve the look of your skin as you wear it, which of course was pretty appealing to me because I have blemishes, uneven skin tone and some acne scarring.

Unfortunately I don’t think I got the right shade. A very common issue when choosing foundation, but it’s frustrating because I had the cosmetician at Shoppers Drug Mart help me choose. Usually you try the shade on your chin, and if it more or less “disappears” it’s your right shade. I’ve always been pretty confused about what my skin tone is, I’m just so pale! D: Most of the time I just go with the lightest tone… This one is 02 Fair, so I’m guessing it isn’t which is probably the problem.

Anyway so because of this is makes it difficult to properly test this product.

I also got the matching redness solution. As you see in the picture – the bottle is green. My usual colour corrector IS actually green. This one is not, which is disappointing. The one I use I can no longer find in the bottle, only in the concealer stick that comes with the green. So I was trying to find a replacement, though this one does “visibly reduce redness on contact” as it says on the bottle.

I have tired wearing the foundation on it’s own, although because the colour is a little off on me I don’t find it looks right. I did not like the consistency at all either, it does feel “light” but it doesn’t seem to blend onto the skin well – even if it’s the wrong colour. I’m not sure how to explain it really, haha. It’s hard to spread with my makeup sponge like I usually do, it doesn’t blend out, so I tried with my fingers. I just don’t seem to get the amount of coverage I usually need, so whenever I did try this makeup it had to be when my face wasn’t breaking out.

So far I’ve ended up using it as a base, mostly the redness solution to cover up and then I use my usual foundation along with it. I might just love my foundation too much, haha. Too bad it doesn’t “improve the overall look of my skin” D:!

This foundation also has SPF 15 in it, which I suppose makes it a good spring/summer makeup for those that don’t need that much coverage. Though that does mean this makeup expires, so keep that in mind!

I’ll continue trying it out, but my first impressions are not very good from this product. Not to mention I had to go on a mission for it! Not all Shoppers Drug Marts carry Clinique products – none in my area did. Thankfully the one on the way to my university did, but it’s not an area I shop in. I like having everything in the same place, haha!

I would recommend this product mainly to someone who doesn’t need a lot of coverage. Though really, for the price ($30) I don’t think it’s that amazing. SPF is good, but for that I would go more for an sweat-proof type of foundation that you don’t sweat off. Cause warm weather means sweating, and no one likes losing their makeup halfway through the day.

If anyone is curious, my usual foundation that I love is Maybelline’s Super Stay makeup. It’s pretty awesomee, it gives great coverage and has “zero-transfer” so it doesn’t rub off as easily as some foundations. I find it’s quite light, don’t really feel like you’re wearing makeup. I set it with Maybelline Dream Matte powder, boo shiny forehead!

Good sweat-proof make-up I used to use it Revlon ColorStay Active, has SPF 25 in it. Also good coverage but isn’t cakey or heavy. Both of these was pretty easy to find my shade in as well. I personally think Maybelline has a great line of makeup, but I’m always experimenting with new stuff!

Alrighty! So here’s the post for today. I know I said I would do something about the Lulu Patch for League of Legends, but perhaps I’ll do a first impressions on her after I get to play her. I’ll definitely be purchasing her when she comes out on Tuesday. Depending on if she has nice skins I have enough IP to get her without spending real money, which I have done before… haha.

Thanks for stopping by!

League of Legends Lulu Patch

http://na.leagueoflegends.com/news/lulu-fae-sorceress-revealed

Preeetty excited.

Riot community has been asking for new support champion f.o.r.e.v.e.r

I’m tired from work though, I will try to make a proper post for this sometime soon. Though if it’s not by Tuesday I’ll probably be busy playing this new character. :D

My problem with the internet. RANT.

Warning!

This post with contain lots and lots of cursing. Because I’m mad. 

So while we’re on the topic of Women’s Day, and respecting women, and trying to stop this goddamned oversexualization at every freaking opportunity! I’m really pissed off, once again!

I follow Sourcefed on youtube, it’s a branch off of Phillip DeFranco’s channel where he updates people about world news. Sourcefed is a condensed version that’s updated a few times each day on stories as they happen.

One of their posts today featured for the first time two female staff members doing the news update. I thought it was appropriate for women’s day, as it was also about a self made billionaire who just so happens to be a woman. I was like hey, awesome, this was great! Because these two woman are funny, intelligent and cool people.

But it appears that 95% of the male community don’t give a fucking shit about that! As I’m commenting, all I see is new comments being posted about either “they should do a porno” or whatever variant of such, or just guys being plain disgusting.

IT’S FUCKING RIDICULOUS. What is the point of coming off as a complete and utter douche bag that can only see a woman as a sexual object!? I realize it’s the freaking internet and we’re veiled by this shield of  remaining autonomous but STILL. I also realize it’s pretty silly for me to be getting mad at this, but this is exactly what bothers me about society. ESPECIALLY what bothers me about sexism on the internet. It’s just gotten to an unbelievably point, and I feel like I’m the only one that’s a problem. Constantly woman are being degraded, made fun of, insulted, presented as nothing more than a sexual object. It just infuriates me that it all just seems to be okay. If anyone, any women, complain about it they’re just assaulted by trolls about being unable to take a joke. Well it’s hard to take a joke when people really fucking believe it to be true. I also can’t stand this “women belong in the kitchen” joke that also seems to be not a big deal, guys can say whatever the fuck they want.  I honestly just can’t fucking handle it sometimes, how completely ignorant and downright cruel people can be on the internet.

You can tell me all you want that there’s no point, it doesn’t effect anyone. Well it does. I’m being effect right now, it’s painting men in a horrible light. All girls will see this as a standard for how men think, and never take them seriously. How many kids have committed suicide or been incredibly hurt by internet bullying? I believe this to be on the same level. It’s bullying, it’s simply continuing to put women below men. I remember even mentioning in a lecture at school, when the professor was talking about Virginia Woolf. In her era, there was no way a woman could even go into a library without a man. A woman was nothing. That was sexism back then, yes now we’ve gained rights, education, jobs and yet I find there may have been some steps back taken. Especially on the internet. The image of a woman in increasingly sexualized, and there’s apparently just no other way to like at a woman, even FULLY CLOTHED in an completely non-sexual situation, it’s still all about men’s sexuality towards her.

It’s just… sad. Absolutely sad. Yet, it’s everywhere, and it doesn’t seem to be a problem. I hope somehow one day I’ll have some sort of influence when I can help remedy this somehow, I want to challenge sexism on the internet. I’ve already had enough with anything to do with women online has to do with sex, no matter what it is. I’m especially surrounded by this as a gamer girl. It’s really discouraging sometimes, and I hate humanity enough as it is.

Anyway. I think I’ve run out of steam. Here’s the video if anyone wants to watch it. Didn’t know where I should insert it into the post. Bye.

Side note: Notice the video preview is women’s legs? Yep. That’s to attract guys to watch it. LOOK. HOT LADY.

Fuck you internet. Just fuck you.

International Women’s Day

“I do not wish women to have power over men; but over themselves.” – Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley 

It’s amazing to realize just how much is being celebrated in this day.  I’ll be honest, I don’t even remember hearing about Women’s Day last year.

I’m not even quite sure how to tackle this.

After some reading, I’ve discovered today celebrates the accomplishments of women in history in the advancement of gender equality. Of course it began with advocating for better working conditions and the right to vote. So much more has evolved from the first day women protested for their rights and freedom. Yet, as I read a list of specific events happening in countries around the world, many women in other cultures are still struggling. It’s hard for me to imagine being a woman that is completely denied basic rights, let alone allowed to speak her mind. Especially since I’m such a strongly opinionated lady!

Definitely today is about empowering women and continuing to create a better futures. That’s a good way to summarize it, but today means many different things around the world. Just as there are a number of countries, there’s a number of different issues. I’m incredibly grateful I was born in Canada, because if I were still the same person elsewhere I could not imagine the rage I would feel because oppressed. Though of course I am the person I am because I was raised in this culture where women can get an education and have careers.

Instead, a topic I feel quite strongly about, I’m one who struggles with her body image and feelings of being inadequate.

Here I don’t even know where to begin either. It’s something that upsets me immensely, and have no power over. I’m completely against the media and every over-sexualized image of women. The constant goal to sell things, using women to entice men and make women want to be her. Unfortunately it’s something I’ve fallen victim to, like many young women my age, where I constantly wish I was “her” for whatever crazy, messed up psychological reason.

I don’t deny men are also assaulted with images of what an attractive man should look like, I just feel like women are much more harshly judged. I feel like there is more lee-way to who the attractive man is, where as women it’s quite consistently the same. I find it’s quite obvious, with the numerous celebrity women who are constantly trying to keep up with the idealized body image. Though because I don’t particularly follow celebrity gossip I don’t have any examples but I’m sure anyone can think of a few.

It just frustrates me to no end that even young girls try to mimic these so called role models, thinking they need to starve themselves to stay skinny and think plastic surgery will fix everything. It’s just dumb, really. It’s so disappointing how low society has gotten in the use of “sex sells”. Prime example is that stupid Hardee’s hamburger commercial with Kate Upton. Not even going to link it cause I don’t want it here. It’s really laughable how they cast a famous model to “model” with this hamburger, worse thing is that it’s going to work. Really guys? Just because some hot chick was making-out with this hamburger you’re going to go out and buy it? Is that really the kind of incentive you need? Sadly it is. Just like how great Victoria’s Secret models look which plants the idea in womens heads “if I get that super expensive bra I’ll totally look like her!”

DAMN YOU ADVERTISEMENT. How you anger me so!

Not to mention the recent culprit of super-photoshoping H&M, where people realized that the 4 different skin tone models were actually the same, digitally rendered body with different a skin colour. In whichever article I read it pretty much asked the same thing I thought, does this mean that some brands now are giving out the message that no female model is good enough for their clothing? They have to render one to do so? The amount of computer editing that is done to every magazine and advertisement images is shocking. Pretty much anyone can model, because it doesn’t matter it won’t look like you any more by the time they’re finished!

Dove is a huge participant is showing women’s real beauty. Here’s a video that shows a time lapse of photoshop retouching.

I think that’s a great quote at the end “No wonder our perception of beauty is distorted” because for some reason society has decided that this standard of “beauty” isn’t even possible. It’s all faked. There are so many people who know better, and I’m sure many men that aren’t even this shallow but then that really makes you wonder why is it still like this? How come it’s so difficult to change?

At this point I might just end up feeling angry if I continue this post. I probably have more to share, but I can’t get my ideas sorted out. It’s okay! I’m sure I’ll get a chance to talk about this soon. I just wanted to do a post that was more or less relevant to something, though I just got to rant more, yay!

World needs more real beauty, less fake stuff. Need to stop putting this impossible imagine into young girls’ mind so they don’t grow up thinking there’s something wrong with them. An issue I’m trying to overcome, even with the knowledge that it’s all completely bogus. Oh well!

Ima out!

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Oh man, as you can see immediately from the title – I’m at a block!

My blog so far consists on reviews, so I feel bad just rambling on about my life. Though this is my blog and I should be allowed to do whatever I want! Problem is, nothing interesting happens in my life… haha!

More or less things occupying my time lately is just school and work. Otherwise I’m lazying about. I really do want to work on my writing though, I just wish I had something interesting to write. It’s unfortunate because I got C+ on my last two assignments… for English… Ouch. :/ I’m not sure what went wrong, usually I can do pretty darn well on writing assignments. I suppose though since this is English at University the standards are much higher and I’m just not up to par. It may have something to do with the fact that I’m getting bored though.

Once again I find myself searching around trying to convince myself of what I want to do for the rest of my life. It’s really frustrating, feeling like it’s something I should already know. Though it really isn’t and I think it’s ridiculous that kids in high school are already being pressured into choosing their career before even really knowing themselves first. We hear all the time about most first year students in college/university completely flunking because there just isn’t a very good transition. I think I was lucky with that at least, I had just started up with a first year certificate program that was pretty lax, but gave a good introduction to college. Though I don’t know how much that will serve me now…

As I continuously say, I keep changing my mind. I’m fickle, and I get bored easily (which is why I’m notorious for not finishing games, or not playing them for long periods of time before I go back to finish). So I’ve been searching for whatever my “talent” or “calling” is. Sad thing is, it’s just not coming to me. There have been no epiphanies for me. Even with English, I don’t find I have a way with words like some people I know. Where it seems that they can just manipulate them perfectly into sentences that express so much.  I’ve given up almost completely on drawing, though I don’t want to let go of my creative side. Nothing to be creative about any more though…

I just seem to be really good at ranting. Haha! People have always told me they love to listen to me rant… Not much you can do with that though, I don’t think.

Anyway so really I’ve been trying to decide what to do next, and what direction I want to try to stick to. I know I’m incredibly unhappy at York University, and I’ve been accepted to Journalism and Media Communications at Humber. So my choices are between finishing an English major (not likely to keep my interesting) or choosing one of those two. Initially I was all about Journalism, because I wanted to be able to write good reviews about stuff I’m interested in, but I’ve already been having second thoughts. At the information session the program coordinator mentioned “You have to become a news junkie” and that does’t sound like me. So it had be really worried, having to feign interest in politics and such. Which is why I’ve seem to have turned to Media Communications with it variety of subjects. It’s incredibly diverse, and often described as “a little bit of everything”. I’m starting to think maybe that would be good for me, since I keep getting bored with whatever I choose. It’s also only 2 years, meaning I can hurry up and get into a job.

I’m always in a hurry to grow up, haha. Though some family might read this (and I’ll hear about it later then) but I’ve already begun thinking about moving out. It’s just in my mind, and by no means can happen any time soon. I want to hopefully endure as much work at Chrysler as possible, pay for my school so I don’t owe for that, and hopefully get a decent job asap. Though I am looking into getting a car in the summer, so that will be more money borrowed. I’m really trying to be realistic buut it can’t hurt to consider things!

I could go into a whole new entire rant into how doomed students are with loans and debt. I’m really grateful my parents have the money to lend me and I really hope to pay them back as much as I can before I move out. Moving out means more debt at first! Which is why full-time job is absolute requirement! I really wonder how some people manage to move out so quickly, though from what I hear end up moving back home. I’m pretty sure my parents are ensuring this will not happen by not pressuring any of us about moving out, haha.

So yup, all kinds of regular life stuff. Used car shopping, procrastinating on school work, deciding future endeavours.

Oh happy women’s day! I guess I could have done a full post on that, didn’t even think about it. Maybe I should, just to have more content, haha! Just my personal opinions on stuff. Though I haven’t read up much on this International Women’s Day, suppose I should. Hm hm hm. Perhaps I should give that as an assignment to myself.

I think I will! It’s a subject I’m interested in!

Okay, be back in a bit with another post!

Blame it on…

Pokemon!

Ha. Bad rhyming.

Anyway, no updates lately, I’ve been playing Pokemon FireRed :x got an emulator. It’s so relaxing! Haha, been busy with school and work.

Not much to review yet either, may have some stuff to say about makeup soon though. Been trying out new foundation and bought a Lancome lipstick. 

Otherwisee no other games, I haven’t beat FF13-2 yet because it was getting on my nerves and Skyward Sword is still waiting for me. So many games so little time!

Side note. I AM AMAZING AT POKEMON SLOTS. Took me not even 30 minutes to get enough coins to get Dratini. Dratini is awesome. I’ve never had one! This is my first time playing FireRed, I had Emerald for my GameBoy SP. 

Anyway not much to sayy! Just felt like there needed to be a little apology for the lack of posting lately.

Oh and if anyone wants to join in this weird pokemon come-back craze… http://www.nogba.com/ that’s the emulator I’m using. P:

Ta!